My Dream

Well, apart from not really sleeping much last night, the dream i did have was quite strange, more distressing than strange but non the less it must mean something. SO sorry to Jacob, as he was the one who ended up worse off :P 

Jacob had died. We were in my old school for some reason, a group of BTEC 2s and Jacob were doing some creative im sure, then Andy, Jacob and I went off to my old RE room and were talking. Jacob then went off the common room to then horribly suffer a heart attack and die. Now just Andy and I were really around with Joe B popping up later..

I was more devastated then i could ever imagine, harrowing cries and screaming filled 'T Block' and i couldn't be calmed down at all. Andy kept asking me why i was so upset (insensitive klunge) and i just kept on balling my eyes out, screaming 'he's dead' and 'NOOO!!' :'[

A few hours/days/ a week later i was going to Tesco with Burns. He couldn't understand why i was so upset either,  our conversation went a little like this..

J: 'I just don't understand why you got so upset'

L: 'You'll never understand'

J: 'Why can't you tell me?

L: 'I just can't, it..'

J: 'You can talk to me you know..'

L: 'I know i can, but things have been iffy between us in the past and i don't want to make anything more awkward than it has been'

WHAT THE FU*K does THAT mean??!?!?! That's how i remember it and it ended on such a line like that, how could i do that to myself? Well well,  no idea what to do now, might just leave it. I can guess some people i know will very much read into this and will come up to me and talk to me about it and how i really feel, but there's no need :p

SO that was my dream,, not very uplifting or happy, but i thought i would share with ya'll what was going on in my head in my few hours of kip.