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There are times in our lives where friendships fall apart and we underestimate our ability...


It has been 2 days since I had my audition at Central School of Speech and Drama.. and it actually went VERY WELL! Ok, this may seem silly, but I was very happy to go home after the first round, as for me it was mainly to see what it was like to audition at a drama school. Finding out that I had got through to the second round was just.. Incredible.


I, me, Liam Maddin had gotten through to the second stage to be in a top drama school. I still to this day, underestimate what I achieved that day, for reasons I don't quite know why yet..


Just to clear the air, I don't gloat about this, over talk about it and i certainly don't use it against people.


I wish all my friends every success and happiness in their future, they work hard and really deserve a decent future.


The very end of last week saw the beginning of a reformation of a friendship! Hollie and I have known each other since Year 9 and have been best friends ever since, although that stopped temporarily when we just.. grew apart..


She recently celebrated her 18th birthday on Sunday, I didn't see her at all that day.


I popped a card through her door, basically saying 'I'm ready when you are' and this did the trick. Even though i said i hated her and never wanted to speak again (as you do) we put what had been a very sad time behind us and began again. 


There are times in our lives when we realise how much we can achieve, and how much we really missed a dear friend that was nearly lost in the past.

Keep Calm and Carry On

What else can we do in our current situation other than keeping calm and carrying on? 


VAT increase, petrol duty increase, rail fare increase, i have no money, i spent money i did have on something i don't need, im about to turn down a good opportunity for me because i need money, im crapping myself about next week, i have to learn 4/5 monologues and read where they came from, do two essays by friday, TIDY MY GOD DAYMM ROOM! while doing the other little things in between like eating and remembering to do things.


Jees, that pretty much sums what this whole thing was going to entail, at the risk of ruining it now!


On the positive side of things, I have seen my sexy friends today, some for the first time since we left for Christmas! I know riiiiiiiiigght. It was soo lovely to see them, they looked really great actually! I mean, you expect people to be a little bit chubbier but it was not the case! If anything they were on average skinnier. Well done! =]


I have a few options for my dance solo. At long last! It has taken me hours of Spotifying trying to find something that I could use. I have gone for classical music, (as we're not allowed lyrical music, classical and instrumental are our only options. basics.) My thingy is.....

Secret Intentions

Deep or what huh? ;] I brag a shizzle, but i can't guarantee how good it'll be.. only time shall tell. GUHH will ya listen to me? im trying to be positive but i've veered towards the negative, what is going one? Maybe it's because i've once again put a litlle bit of pressure on me.

Dance essay is done!

Music for dance is done!

Half of M4M read!

I seriously need to push my self more. I need a pushy person in my life. No one i know is overly pushy, which i suppose is a good thing, but i really need a pusher right now! I think im doing ok, and i should shite all over what i've done today alone (above) but i need to do more.

I shall relay my list to yous.

Learn 2 Shakespears

Learn 2 contemps

Read M4M

Read King Lear

Read the two contemp plays

And that kinda all needs to be done my Monday at the latest. Sooner the better really.

But you know what?! I can do this, I may disadvantaged myself a wee bit, just a.. wee.. bit BUT I can do this! I just gotta work hard, harder than ever because I want this! I wanna walk outta that room knowing I couldn't have done ANY better!!

If i can read half a book which im not going to lie, i haven't done in a fair while, in one night, i can do the list!

   

Welcome

I was hoping to post an entry on the 31st and the 1st. As it's 12:15am i've missed an entry on New Years Day and im not sure how I feel about that.

Slightly off-course, i could have work in just under 12 hours, which I hope I don't but it's most likely that I will have to work my 6 hour shift of washing dishes. Hoofuckingray.

(I also said I may answer a few questions in this entry for a reader, but, not this one)

So. 2011. It's here and there's nothing we can do about it, last year is history and 364 days await us. I had a smashing New Years party! I went down to my friend Hannahs family in Portsmouth and I really enjoyed myself =] They come from Scotland so they introduced a few scottish traditions which was nice to experience and not even forgetting that It was dress up and I of course went as... Lady Gaga this was very good as I made a real effort with this one, and i am very happy with the result. So much so it deserves a picture or two! Love this moment as I don't do pictures for any old reason! Yes I look fetching. Although there Is ALWAYS room for improvement, every time I Gagafy myself I think i can do so much better, and one day i'll wear something that will truly blow people away.

I have to mention that Hannah, Emma, Andy and I made use of the hot tub present and spent a very interesting/ relaxing 4 hours in the tub of watery delight. I haven't been in a hot tub since we were considering getting one, and it was heaven. Even though I didn't get out till 8am I was determined to see the sun rise/ it get lighter outside which we successfully did :D. It was also the coldest i've been in a while; getting out after your fingers and toes were literally resembling raisins.

So yes a successful New Years indeed. 

Now, this Monday means it will be exactly one week until I have my Central audition. Im currently scared, excited and a wee nervous. Who wouldn't be? Being realistic here, I know it would be incredible If i got in this year, I don't expect myself to because.. well.. that's harder to answer than I thought. I would be upset if I don't get in this year, because I want to be a part of it so much but hopefully I would have taught myself how to cope with 'No.'

I have a hell of a lot of work to do between now and then. Can I get myself ready in time? Yes. Will I give them everything I have? Yes! Im up for the challenge of thousands against me, it's not what its about but you must remember you are there to get a place at a top drama school. Yes be friendly, yes talk to others, yes do the natural thing but don't let yourself think you're not as good as others. Thats not for you to decide.