I Didn't Know

Here I am writing a blog post on my iPhone, I didn't even know there was an app for this!!


I'm not even writing it actually, I'm speaking to my phone, Siri is an amazing personal assistant, with more emphasis on the assistant part of course.


I am currently at work feeling like absolute crap, I want to go home but I don't think they will let me due to having so little staff in the store these days.


I cannot wait for my Olympic rehearsals to begin, they can't come soon enough! I'll be living in London for the summer with my Emma and also having the time of my life!! Bring it on!!


I have just consumed so much juice in an effort to make myself feel better, however I think the overload of vitamin C might turn me into a walking nutrition pill.


I must be off back to work I go.

Tough

So lately I've been feeling pretty crap over the past two, three weeks, and it's horrible.


I've been in this moody state in which the main reason is because I'm currently unhappy with the way things are at the moment. Work being the main thing.


Now y'all can shut up with your 'welcome to my worlds,' 'like sucks' and whatnots. THIS IS THE WORST THING YOU COULD SAY to anyone who feels like this. Everyone's 'world' is different and various situations affect people in an array of ways. One person may be able to work 45 hours a week where they are on the feel all their working day, I for one can't do that. 'Man upland other crap, bitch please hold it in.


It's all about finding what does it for you.


'I've never met a person where they're happy in their job'' Well that may be your case, but as a quote to which i love:

"Find a job you love and you'll never have to work a day in your life"

This quote is amazing. This is how i feel about being a performer. Acting is what i was put on this earth to do, and there's no way that when I'm on my death bed i'll mutter 'i wish i had lived my life the way i wanted too'  Many people do settle for second best, or the easy option and let their dreams stay dreams. A nurse who worked in a ward in which people were soon to die, said that was one of the most common the soon departed said. So i hope you understand that i will make my dream be a reality.. why shouldn't i?

I've had to make some tough decisions, but i need to do them to get what i want in order to be who I want to become and to ultimately.. be happy.