And They're Off!

So two of my dearest friends are setting of for Europe as we speak, they're on their way to Stansted right now. Im so excited for them, travelling around Europe, i would LOVE to do that at some point.


This is a lovely picture that i drew for Emma and Hannah, people did ask if freehanded this, i did say to some that i did, but then i thought..

''Me, draw this? I wish! Ha!''

I got a D in art. No i did trace it, but it think it's one amazing piece of tracing. YES the UK is that close to France. No really.

The red lines are where they're going.

HAVE FUN GUYS!

Also, after a month or so of ups and downs of what i want to get out of my gap year, im finally starting to put the wheel in motion by ready more plays and compiling a list of ones i'd like to do!
Hooray!
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Also, work is better now i've asked for me to not work over 30 hours, which for me is just right, anymore and i find it really tiring. I do laugh at those who think if you mix whole & skimmed milk that it creates semi-skimmed! LOLORREHA it does not, if anything you're making the milk more watery and more f a t t e n i n g as even skimmed has a tiny amount of fat in. WHY DON'T YOU DO SEMI SKIMMED??!! I hear you whale.. well the answer is because i don't really know why.. i think because we'd have to have 9 milk jugs in total which is just cray cray, and besides things taste better with whole milk i've tried drinks with skinny milk and it's not the same!


BYE

My Dream

Well, apart from not really sleeping much last night, the dream i did have was quite strange, more distressing than strange but non the less it must mean something. SO sorry to Jacob, as he was the one who ended up worse off :P 

Jacob had died. We were in my old school for some reason, a group of BTEC 2s and Jacob were doing some creative im sure, then Andy, Jacob and I went off to my old RE room and were talking. Jacob then went off the common room to then horribly suffer a heart attack and die. Now just Andy and I were really around with Joe B popping up later..

I was more devastated then i could ever imagine, harrowing cries and screaming filled 'T Block' and i couldn't be calmed down at all. Andy kept asking me why i was so upset (insensitive klunge) and i just kept on balling my eyes out, screaming 'he's dead' and 'NOOO!!' :'[

A few hours/days/ a week later i was going to Tesco with Burns. He couldn't understand why i was so upset either,  our conversation went a little like this..

J: 'I just don't understand why you got so upset'

L: 'You'll never understand'

J: 'Why can't you tell me?

L: 'I just can't, it..'

J: 'You can talk to me you know..'

L: 'I know i can, but things have been iffy between us in the past and i don't want to make anything more awkward than it has been'

WHAT THE FU*K does THAT mean??!?!?! That's how i remember it and it ended on such a line like that, how could i do that to myself? Well well,  no idea what to do now, might just leave it. I can guess some people i know will very much read into this and will come up to me and talk to me about it and how i really feel, but there's no need :p

SO that was my dream,, not very uplifting or happy, but i thought i would share with ya'll what was going on in my head in my few hours of kip.

My Dear

Looking for a new background for your blog is hard, it has to be something which makes your words easy to read, interesting yet not distracting. It's hard to find the perfect background.


Now working for the next four days in a row, (5 including today) which is crazy, atm i don't mind it, but this is because im only on day 1. Come day three and i be throwing coffee at peoples faces and serving evil stares with them marshmellows!!


I can't wait to be paid at the end of this month, totally going shopping with Sophie and ima SPEND. I deserve it. Slaving away while my other friends laze around on their behinds. I still love you my lazy friends :D


I was watching an episode of EastEnders, but it's been on pause for nearly 2 hours now. Nanny called. Need a say more?


Short blog, this was really to fill the time.


A better, more juicer filled blog to follow shortly.


KISSYPOOS

Now's The Time

I've had a cracking time at my mums cousins surprise party up in Crewe! Despite a three hour 45 minute car ride each way, a quick nap before hand i was ready to go. 


I love my family, there's so many of us which means there's always a different story to be heard. They're lovely. I swear family that i never knew existed where present, and they were, all the never-before-seen people were there, (or the ones that i can remember) including the poor girl who got wankered after 3 glasses of wine and the lovely woman who can read your feet. And no, that's not a typo. She. Can. Read. Your. Feet.


Not read as in reading a book, that would be silly and humanly insane. Appaz, the left if your past and the right is your present. Each toe has a specific meaning and don't you dare even think about asking me what they mean as i cant remember any for the life if me you toe rag, if you'll pardon the pun.


Travelodge, i had forgotten how nice your beds were, keep up the good work.


Train tracking back to mi familia, i got a lot of commenting on how i make people laugh/ smile/ fall to the fall in hysteria/ cry like all of lifes happiness has come at once because of what i post on facebook, wheather this be status', videos or pics they seem to like it. Im also hoping that they r- you know what i will talk to you directly...


Hey family =] Do let me know if you read my blogs of mine, if you do, thats great and if you don't or have just started then do read back and read ahead, im sure you'll find this most enjoyable. Almost like a never ending book but one that you actually want to enjoy but has no beginning middle and most certainly no end.


I have consumed 5 Krispy Kreme doughnuts and a whole judas damned bag of share sized crisps and shit me do i feel grose.(sp?) 


Love YALL. 

Before I Neglect

Not blogged in over a week now, how could i do that to you? My kind readers. So as i sink into my delicious virgin sunrise (i still have no tequila) i shall tell you whata magwarn (what of my gran) in my world.

Colourful refreshment

My dilemmas from my previous entry 'What To Do' have now all be solved by an ingenious friend of mine. Everything he said made sense, it was great to hear what i really needed to hear, and the fact that it came from someone who i hadn't seen in a while also helped in a strange way. So all is good on my year ahead =]


Work (Slavery even) is crazy, im just about coping with 30-32 hours a week, its ok for now but i wouldn't wanna be doing anymore than that. "Well all you do is froth milk and make coffee" F**K YOU I am on my feet all day which for 8 hours at a time 4 times a week is pretty mad.


Mum came back from Turkey last week, she had a good time although it doesn't sound like my cup a tea. I don't like the idea of slipping the Turkish government a tenner at border control, sounds a little corrupt..


My dearest friend sophie passed her driving test yersters! Horrah for her :D she can now take me places and such so i can drink my self away. wwwwooooo =]


Currently reading Martina Cole's The Family after being inspired by watching a tv adaptation of The Runaway which was f**king amazing if i do say so myself! Loved it and would seriously recommend ya'll watching it. 


Also got my iPhone screen repaired at last, went to BTN with Emma and Andy, they watched a subtitled parody of Downfall in which sentences like 'fuck me with a crowbar' are used. It was hilarious, especially when the lady who i was talking to could hear and see them two which made her laugh! YEAH LETS WATCH A HITLER FILM IN THE APPLE STORE. :| Twas funny though ;)

What To Do

Even now, after the second day of working a lot more hours, im already starting to feel far away from what i want to do. 

I actually nearly... :'[ at work today.

Seems stupid i know, you're preaching to the choir. What i mean is, is that in my gap year i want to be involved in theatre as much as possible, being in it, creating it, helping it, i just want to be involved. Sounds easy enough doesn't it? Not when when no one. No One. I've talked to about it in the plainest form understands or helps me. I am scared that by working so many hours (29 this week, 32 next) that i will have no time to do anything. Why don't you ask if you can get your hours reduced? Well because mum wants me to work more so i have more money. Sounds like there's no problem, but to me i just don't want to work more.

I think in a not good place right now. Just left college, gap year, what the hell am i gunna do. My heads a little all over the place. I think im just adapting to adulthood. At the minute it sucks.

All i know for sure is that I don't want to go through a year not doing a lot, then giving a blank expression followed by an 'ummm, not much really...'  which never sounds good, i'd hate that.

What the f**k do i do? That's if you can help that is.