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I was hoping to post an entry on the 31st and the 1st. As it's 12:15am i've missed an entry on New Years Day and im not sure how I feel about that.

Slightly off-course, i could have work in just under 12 hours, which I hope I don't but it's most likely that I will have to work my 6 hour shift of washing dishes. Hoofuckingray.

(I also said I may answer a few questions in this entry for a reader, but, not this one)

So. 2011. It's here and there's nothing we can do about it, last year is history and 364 days await us. I had a smashing New Years party! I went down to my friend Hannahs family in Portsmouth and I really enjoyed myself =] They come from Scotland so they introduced a few scottish traditions which was nice to experience and not even forgetting that It was dress up and I of course went as... Lady Gaga this was very good as I made a real effort with this one, and i am very happy with the result. So much so it deserves a picture or two! Love this moment as I don't do pictures for any old reason! Yes I look fetching. Although there Is ALWAYS room for improvement, every time I Gagafy myself I think i can do so much better, and one day i'll wear something that will truly blow people away.

I have to mention that Hannah, Emma, Andy and I made use of the hot tub present and spent a very interesting/ relaxing 4 hours in the tub of watery delight. I haven't been in a hot tub since we were considering getting one, and it was heaven. Even though I didn't get out till 8am I was determined to see the sun rise/ it get lighter outside which we successfully did :D. It was also the coldest i've been in a while; getting out after your fingers and toes were literally resembling raisins.

So yes a successful New Years indeed. 

Now, this Monday means it will be exactly one week until I have my Central audition. Im currently scared, excited and a wee nervous. Who wouldn't be? Being realistic here, I know it would be incredible If i got in this year, I don't expect myself to because.. well.. that's harder to answer than I thought. I would be upset if I don't get in this year, because I want to be a part of it so much but hopefully I would have taught myself how to cope with 'No.'

I have a hell of a lot of work to do between now and then. Can I get myself ready in time? Yes. Will I give them everything I have? Yes! Im up for the challenge of thousands against me, it's not what its about but you must remember you are there to get a place at a top drama school. Yes be friendly, yes talk to others, yes do the natural thing but don't let yourself think you're not as good as others. Thats not for you to decide.