Looking Back

"When I look back on my life, it's not that I don't want to see things exactly as they happened, it's just that i prefer to remember them in an artistic way"

Sorry, that had to be said. Lady Gaga <3

So, I've noticed that two of my very special and close friends have typed some blogs, so now it's my turn. Again, I'm not going to dive into detail, and fill you in on everything that's happened since i last wrote.

I did my team leader (Barista Maestro) course on Friday, and i learned so much more about my job, the coffee side of it it and the team leader side. It's so interesting.. who know coffee could be so interesting? I shan't bore you, but Costa puts in so much more effort into it's blend than Nero & Starbucks put together. Nero don't even use Fairtrade or Rainforest Alliance and Starbucks is all about quick-fast coffee. Costa is handcrafted coffee that gives back to our growers.. listen to me, I'm babbling, i shan't bore you..

Now, my play has been postponed, if you didn't know, I'm directing i play and no.. i didn't write it. It was meant to be performed on May 10th & 11th but ultimately my cast wasn't ready. It's rather frustrating, annoying, upsetting.. but most of all disappointing. I've put so much time and energy into this, but it's a lesson learned to myself and hopefully them. If any of you read this, i hope you have fully realised what you did, and now you're going to prove yourself as a performer by delivering a great piece, because it can be.. the buck stops with you. I'm now filling in for one of the characters, i'm looking forward to acting again and hopefully we can finally get this bloody show in the road!

I went and saw the Shakespeare performances tonight, King Lear & Titus. They were great and once again made me realise it was a year ago since we did ours, time flies and it does and also doesn't feel that long ago. Strange. If only life could be like those two years forever..

My best friend is off to CSSD this September, leaving me to live in London to live her dream. It's unbelievable, the girl i met at the start wouldn't have thought she ever had a chance, but now look at her, 3 years on and she's a whole new person who's living their dream. Im very proud. I'll miss her like mental. It's not that i feel lonely or isolated, but so far from the past. I want to get into CSSD for 2013 more than anything, i'm going to push myself more than ever to make sure i give them all i can, get in and move away. I'm going slowly but surely crazy living in Burgess Hill, like Hannah with East Grinstead.. we want bigger things, to live in a bigger place. I don't think she knows what she wants to do with herself yet.. Knowing that I'm going to live in Mid-Sussex until at least September 2013 is bad enough.  

God i wish that i could just up and go you know? Quit my job, take whatever money i can and just go.. Europe, Australia, New York where ever! My life lacks adventure and.. well.. life. I should really finish my passport application, at least when i get that, it's my ticket outta here. Scary how this resonates with "It's A Wonderful Life" George Bailey and I have something in common.. maybe that's why I was picked to play him.. Strange.

My bloglings, I'm here and will be for however long. What i hate is meeting amazing people, friends that i really want to stay in touch with but i fear life will take the away. I'll look at a photo album and say "I wonder what happened to him, we were so close" or "God i miss her so much, i don't even know where she lives now" Thank god for Facebook.

Gosh, i've written so much, if only essays and books were this easy to write eh?

Ta Ta.